Yesterday we had our appt with the doctor to go over Sydney's autopsy. Unfortunately we heard what we were expecting. There is no cause of death. It is being classified at unexplained late term loss. I am having a hard time excepting that. How did my baby, my healthy baby just die? How does this happen? Why does this happen? The doctor also reassured us that our next pregnancy will be handled different. We will go in for regular non stress test, we will also get more ultrasounds, and pending an amnio we will be induced between 37-38 weeks. I was relieved to hear that.
Last night we also had our first support group meeting. It was really nice to be around a bunch of other people going through what we are going through. We told our story and talked about things that have happened since Sydney passed. I hope as we go we can grow closer to some of the people in the group. To have people in our lives that have gone through what we have would be nice.
I also finally contacted the photographer that took Syd's pictures. She said she is finishing them up and we should have them next week. I can't wait to see the beautiful pictures she took. I know I will need to have a box of tissue next to me. I can't even express anymore how much I miss her. I keep saying it but it doesn't feel strong enough. I just want to hear her cry and look into her beautiful blue eyes.
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