December has come, Christmas is coming. Everyone is cheerful. I try to be so bad, I am excited for the boys but there is a piece of the family missing. It is hard to do things that I am normally excited about. We got our Christmas tree yesterday the boys had fun, but all I could think about was how I was suppose to be worried about keeping a newborn warm. Instead I believe she was the one keeping us warm. She turned the thermostat up in heaven and made sure we had beautiful weather down here. Every morning I wake up and it hits me again, my baby is gone. How did I go 9 months without a single issue and then one morning I woke up and she was dead, inside of me. How does that happen?
I went into Buy Buy Baby and told them when I was planning on coming back to work. I am so scared to go back. It has been almost 2 months I have been gone. So much has changed since I left so many new people and managers. I hope I remember what to do. I hope I can get through the first day without tears. I have a little over a month left of being home with the boys.
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