Everywhere I look

Everywhere I look there are pregnant women or babies. I mean I work in a baby store. Everyone says  "I don't know how you do it". Truth is I don't even really know how I do it. Most days I guess I can just turn it off. Other days it is just not possible. But then there are other times it hits so much closer to home. When I find out someone close to me is pregnant. Don't get me wrong I am excited for all of these women but I am sooooo jealous. I am also very scared for them. Because before we lost Sydney I never thought it would happen to us, then it did. I really want that happiness again!