Oct 25

Today was suppose to be a happy day. The day we welcomed new life into the world. It was not suppose to be like this. No one should have to give birth to an angel. Why do we have to be left with this huge hole in our heart. When you read about other bereaved parents some say with time it gets easier, others say it never gets easier. I wish I knew where I fell in that. I would like to think that one day I will be able to actually smile not force it. I will be able to lay in bed at night and smile for everything that I do have and not for the loss he have experienced.